im tired, not only physically but also mentally. i wish time would stop and let my mind rest a bit. i'm having a terrible headache now! and i think i'm sick. what wonderful timing right? guess i won't be able to smell ammonia tmr le. =.=

i'm tired, like real tired.... =\

♥ 10:17 PM

10 days to O levels.

& see what i'm doing now? slacking and blogging while other people are most likely mugging their heads off. lol! should i go mug too? nah~ Xp

can anyone tell me what they're studying for social studies? i don't want to go to the extent of memorising everything alright?! i hope merger and seperation comes out. Xp

sheesh, this post is getting real boring with all those studying stuff~ but i honestly don't have anything else to talk about. life is pretty boring when u're a O level student. ZzzZzz... fine, i'll come back when i have something to crap about. for now, go find something else to entertain ureself pple. >.<

my com speaker sucks!! =.=

i love my dear. [:

♥ 8:19 PM

i deleted the last two posts, because it just brings back sad memories. now, everything is fine, i guess and i know, nothing like this will ever happen again. [:

physics practicals is tomorrow! that's the 2nd paper down~ LOL! countdown till O levels is 11 days! and countdown to END of o levels is 23 days. yea~ pple, this is the last lap so work extra extra hard and do ure best! [: will not be posting for quite a while.. i'm gonna mug and mug till i go crazy~ lol.

today was the last day of school but i really didn't think it was that saddening since i'll be in school like.. tomorrow? lol. before we stepped out of school, (and i mean literally..) dear asked me to look back at our school and alot of things got into me. all those memories that we had in that building. pple, i miss all of you once O levels end.

[: i love you.

♥ 8:29 PM

dear, i'm sorry about today. i really didn't mean to do the many things i once did to you. i truly wasn't disappointed in you nor was I upset about anything. when you came back, i was a bit sad but i soon realised, i don't have any reason to be upset or sad.

sometimes, when one has too much in his/her life, one takes things for granted. i did for a moment, took you for granted. but i'm glad, now i've realised you're importance and how much you've done for me. i did tear a bit while you were gone but it wasn't because of the things you did. when you came back, i didn't dare look at you. i was afraid that i would burst out crying if i were to look you in the eye. how silly can i be? i have the best, right here before me yet i wouldn't cherish. how dumb?!

you never fail to bring a smile to my face, even when i'm on the verge of crying. dear, just want to let you know that i love you. & i promise you, i'll never let you go. [:

Sometimes the heart sees what is invisible to the eye.

♥ 1:06 PM

is prom still on? *looks around.

bio pracs is over! that means one paper down, tons more to go! yea~ *rolls eyes. the chief examiner kept staring at me today. i wasn't gonna cheat?! LOL~ i had alot of extra time, makes me even more nervous. feels like as if i haven't done enough, or just as well. but, its over so, i don't wanna talk about it anymore. music practicals is on thurs @ ACSI . it's just two days away and i've still NOT practised my piece. afterall, it's either a pass or at most, a B4. so why must pia so much? LOL! Xp pay so much to take an exam that you know you won't do well. =.= by the way, how you get to ACSI? lol. i really don't give a damn about this. Xp

can't wait till Os is over. looking at my sis slacking now really kills me. she only got 4 papers (maths, sci, eng and chi) while we have like 9 subs!? each sub got at least 2 papers. SIAN~ torture sia. how come i'm not a genius that can skip grades and go straight to university or something? or why can't i have perfect memory and can memorise everything by reading once? lol~ won't that be great? just copy and paste nia jiu can pass le~ lol! so easy. i must be dreaming....

would it be my fault, if i were to break down and cry?

♥ 10:04 PM

open house

went to NYJC on friday. seriously, alot of people were rather disappointed after the open house. apart from the fact that they have really good facilities(because they have a new campus), everything else isn't appealing at all( except the milo truck, carrie chong and shawn wee).

on friday, went to SA in the morning. & guess who we saw early in the morning? mr bok. =.= SA was okay i guess. except that everything i saw was based on CCA. maybe we went too early le ba. oh, they gave free shoebags. my mom say they got too much money le. lol~ wanted to go AJC after SA de, but my ankle hurts so much that i just decided to go home and rest.

my ankle maybe kena inflammation le. pathetic la, hurting so much~ mummy wants me to go get a massage or something. wait long la! i'll be screaming in there man! lol. Xp

next tues is BIO PRACS!! pple, pray hard its easy! lol~ Xp

happy two month anniversary dear! [:

♥ 2:20 PM

i thought...

tomorrow is grad day. so soon huh? just like that, we've went by four long years in riverside. that's 4 X 365= 1460 days! lol. wonder what happens after everyone splits up to go to different schools. what happens 10 years later when we all meet up again? weird~

a friend, A (keeping names confidential here alright.), is going for surgery. he did not explain fully to me what the surgery was all about except he did tell me it was about the nerves. lol~ he says the chances of recovering fully is only 50%. not really very high huh? although i know nothing of this surgery and how it will affect his life after the surgery, i really hope he will recover fully. he made it sound like he will die and i feel really helpless then, cause after knowing so much i still can't help him. but i did make a promise to him that i'll be there when he goes into surgery. [: see! ain't i such a good friend? lol. well, that's the least i can do right?

he recommended a job to me, about telemarketing and the pay is pretty good. lol~ wondering whether i should find a job after Os. you know, get some extra allowance. LOL~ XP and the working hours is short la. only from 7 to 9pm nia. heh~ so, can say is pretty easy for me cause it's about promoting stuff to other companies and i know i can talk and presuade pple. heh~

M'aimez-vous vraiment?

♥ 8:29 PM

just yesterday during my tuition class, regina(some pri sch friend.) suddenly told me that it was andrew's birthday & that she was going to meet them after the class.

honestly, i didn't know how to react to that. well, ya. andrew & i use to good friends and we always go round quarreling with each other for fun just like pri sch kids do. but, it's been like 4 long years since we even saw each other. i can't even remember when was the last time i even talked about him with yik cheong or any other adp peeps. lol! but, i do know he has changed quite a bit. heard most of these stuff from other people actually. i mean, if one day, i were to meet him on the streets, i most probably won't even recognise him.

okay, so she could most likely just want to let me know since andrew and i have been friends before. but what she continued to say really made my mind go blank.

reg:"Do you have his number?"
me:"huh?" i was wondering how come she don't have his number.
reg:"you want to wish him happy birthday?"
i almost faint when she said this.
me:"oh. erm, no i don't have it but it's okay. i have him on my msn."

well, why you bother whether i wish him happy birthday not? whether i will or not, that's between me and him ma. =.=

right, anyway i haven't seen andrew online since yesterday when i came back so andrew, if you're ever gonna read this which i think you won't, happy 16th birthday! maybe one of these days should meet up with old friends le. lol~

♥ 8:15 PM

ming cut her hair~ yup, like real short, even shorter than mine. lol~ but she looks nice la. shenghong's reaction should be the most exaggerating one le. lol~ Xp i was pretty shocked too when she came into the music room yesterday for music and said, "wanxin, i want to cut my hair!"

at first i thought she was just gonna trim her hair or something but then she continued and said she want to cut till somewhere above her shoulders. i thought she was playing a prank on me again, (like always) but she was serious la. LOL~ see what stress can make a person do?

mug mug and MORE mugging!! finally its friday! heh~ for once, it feels good to be sitting before the computer to think of things to blog about. at least i won't be thinking about maths equation and science terms. if you were to see the pile of past year papers we have now, you'll probably think our school is kiasu(actually, its our class that is kiasu la. Xp). can't wait till Os is over. my sister's PSLE is like gonna be over by monday. and its gonna be hard for me. :( she'll be having fun while i mug even more. :( *sobs.

when you can't see what's ahead of you, is it because its too dark or too bright?

♥ 6:08 PM

highs and lows

well, prelim results is out & i've done relatively well, i guess. except for E maths and english, everything else has a slight improvement. heh~ english is the biggest disappointment yet. E maths is just stupid mistakes that are so costly i can kill myself. LOL! the mistakes i make.. are really too much sometimes. but otherwise, i'm really pleased with my results. at least it was so much better than expected la. ya, i know. other people are getting 10 and below but PLEASE? in my stardards, being eligible for a JC is good enough. XP i actually got the same points as mingda! heh~ Xp coincidence or?

now comes O levels!! heh. how wonderful is that huh?

i looked into the mirror and guess who i saw?

♥ 9:49 PM